My Writing Ramblings: Procrastination is the Thief of Time

rp_Laura-Book-300x2251-300x2251-300x225.jpgHi everyone.

It’s been a while eh?!

2016 for me has been an eventful one (a little bit of an understatement actually.) I have wondered whether to talk about what has been happening in my life recently and whether it would do any good to write about it but I have always gone to the written word to express my feelings. I’ve always kept diaries over the years (not always good at keeping them up though.) Whenever anything happens, I go to the page. Not to write a novel but to just express myself. Recently, I’ve been mostly doing this on seven hundred and fifty words. That blank page listens and it helps.

For me, this year has handed me some pretty intense experiences. Firstly, a miscarriage. This was back in January and it broke my heart. Chris and I had been trying for eight years. The day we found out, I felt as though I was walking on air. All the anxiety and fear I had been feeling had melted away. All that mattered was the baby.

A few weeks later, I needed to have an appointment for a scan as a problem developed. That moment when they confirmed what I think I already knew…time had never slowed like that for me before.

Miscarriage is one of those things that is not really spoken about but once you go through it, you realise that it is something people around you have been through. You get your head around the idea that you are going to be a parent and then…. nothing. You’re left with nothing but this real enormous feeling of sadness and loss for someone whom you never met and yet incredibly miss.

In some sort of fixation the universe has to give me my major life experiences at once, my mum also suddenly passed away in April from meningitis. Yes, I know. You almost couldn’t write it. Even now, it’s still very raw and as a result, I needed to disappear from here for a while.

One thing these events have got me thinking about though is  time. How much it is taken for granted. How many of us are guilty of saying ‘I wont do that now, I can do it tomorrow or ‘I want to write a book. I will do it someday.’ I know I am guilty of this many times over.

I keep thinking how precious the time with my Mum was. How I will always cherish the day she spent with me (which incidentally was the day before she collapsed) and will be always glad of the fact that I didn’t cancel.  I almost did because I didn’t sleep well the previous night. She was only 60 years old. I can’t stop thinking about all the things she still wanted to do and how sad that makes me that she will now not get that chance.

Most of all, I am pleased that my last words to her was to tell her I loved her.

What these two events have shown me what a difference a day makes. How I need to seize every happy moment in the middle of all these sad ones. It’s teaching me that I should not take things for granted – do the things I want to do and do more of what makes me happy. I want to write or the house needs cleaning? I think from now on I will be making a different choice.

It is important to seize opportunities. I recently almost didn’t go to meet an author I liked and admired because I was frightened of making a fool of myself. The only thing that happens when you stop yourself from taking hold of these opportunities is that you miss out on wonderful experiences.

I will leave you with my favourite Dickens quote from the wonderful Mr Macawber. ‘Procrastination is the thief of time. Collar him.’

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Laura
I’m Laura. I started Novel Kicks in 2009. I wanted a place to post my writing as well as give other writers like me the opportunity to do the same. There is also a monthly book club, a writing room which features writing prompts, book reviews, competitions, author interviews and guest posts.

I grew up by the sea (my favourite place in the world) and I currently live in Hampshire. I am married to Chris, have a cat named Buddy and I would love to be a writer. I’m trying to write the novel I’ve talked so much about writing if only I could stop pressing delete. I’ve loved writing since creative writing classes in primary school. I have always wanted to see my teacher Miss Sayers again and thank her for the encouragement. When not trying to write the novel or writing snippets of stories on anything I can get my hands on, I love reading, dancing like a loon and singing to myself very badly. My current obsession is Once Upon a Time and I would be happy to live with magic in the enchanted forest surrounded by all those wonderful stories provided that world also included Harry Potter. I love reading chick lit. contemporary fiction and novels with mystery.

6 Responses to My Writing Ramblings: Procrastination is the Thief of Time

  • Hey, this is great. I agree with everything you said. We shouldn’t worry too much about the bad times because it is our experiences that made us the writer that we are now, and I’m sure that we’ll become even better in the future.

  • It is our life experiences and how re react to them that shape us. You are an amazing woman and the fact that you are finding the positives right now will get you through this.
    Sending love xxx

  • JANE LAMBERT says:

    Hi Laura,
    Many years ago when I was an air stewardess I always dreamed of becoming an actor but had a mortgage etc and believed it was too late. My boyfriend, a cancer survivor, reminded me that life is short and if it was truly what I wanted then I should stop dreaming and make it happen. While in Mombasa (he was a pilot) he drowned in a wind surfing accident. This tragic event made me decide to stop procrastinating and go for it. My journey has not been easy but it has had many highs and I wouldn’t change a thing. I believe he is watching over me and won’t let me fail. I am sure your mum will be watching over you and I wish you happy times to come, filled with love & laughter.
    Thank you for asking – my Facebook page link is http://www.facebook.com/janelambertauthor
    Acting has lead me to writing – another childhood dream and I find it very therapeutic. I know it’s unlikely, but if you happen to be in Edinburgh for the Festival, I am presenting my book at Blackwell’s New Writers at The Edinburgh Fringe on 18th August. Here’s the link…
    events.edinburgh@blackwell.co.uk

  • JANE LAMBERT says:

    Dear Laura, I am so sorry to hear your sad news and am sending you love & light. When you do get your book written I know it will be fabulous because you have a wonderful way with words.
    Love the Mr Micawber quote and have written it down in my notebook of inspiring words.
    I now have an author Facebook page and with Mr Micawber in mind am penning the sequel.
    Take care and may the sun shine down on you very soon.

    • Laura says:

      Thanks Jane. That’s entirely the reaction I was going for – to say that if there is something you want to do, go for it. What’s the link for your page? x

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