February could be renamed ‘the month in which I don’t write.’ I get my notebook out, I open my laptop but then I lose the motivation. Life has got in the way a little this month. It’s amazing how much that has played havoc with my productivity and it is something I need to work on. Life is something that does happen though and there is not a lot I can do about that. It doesn’t stop me from feeling guilt about not writing.
However, even though I have not been physically writing, I have been thinking about my novel. When I’ve been driving, I’ve developed plot lines, when I am sat watching telly, I am thinking about my characters; these people who seem to not want to leave me alone. I see this as a good sign as it means that the book is still churning away in my head even though I have not written anything.
I know I can’t carry on like this. I know that at some point I am going to have to fight through the procrastination and the other things in my life that seem to be sucking up my time but I am feeling a little happier about where I want my book to go and that can’t be bad.
I can’t believe we’re already in the middle of February. 2016 has not been a good year especially in terms of celebrity deaths (I am not sure I will ever get over Alan Rickman,) but it seems to be going as quickly as 2015 did for me. It’s been blink and I’ll miss it territory. Before I know it, I will be nearing the deadline to get my book into the RNA New Writer’s Scheme, I will be closer to being mid 30’s (which I am not happy about) and before we know it, we’re looking at the C word again (yes, Christmas.)
My aim from now is to stop making myself feel guilty about not writing. That kind of thinking is not good for actually getting my bum into the chair and writing and at the end of the day, that is half the battle isn’t it.
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